“Once, I wrote a poem called Should I Jump?

It’s a poem about a depressed 9-year-old who wants to jump off a building but he stops when he thinks of his grandmother. But I don’t think the girl who replied ‘please do’ read it.”

For months, 18-year-old Rondell Taylor has had a confounding, unhealthy association with users on Twitter, specifically members of Black Twitter who frequently deem men “trash” in part for their shameless misogyny and constant policing of womanhood.

Taylor, who suffers from bi-polar disorder, says that he follows many of the prominent accounts within the Twitter womanist community to read their insight – and to feed his low self-esteem.

“I don’t be knowin’ all them big words they be usin’, but I just like when they say s**t like ‘why do men exist.’ It’s exactly what I want to know,” the high school senior says. ”Once, I saw ‘the thought of a manless society makes my p*ssy happy. I decided to ask her what one had to do with the other and about 500 people got on me. The ways they told me to kill myself were lowkey pretty creative.”

Taylor notes that his size and bearded pictures may make him look older than his actual age, which he says is fine. “If I looked like a little boy they might take it easy on me and not drag me,” he says, before noting he did once see a 3-year-old get called “future compost” for catcalling a woman his Father told him to.

Taylor posts daily, including “good morning” tweets which are usually met with disdain. His favorite reply? “It would be a good morning if I were a careless s**tbag, complicit in the degradation of everything my dick desires. But I’m not,” Taylor, a virgin, recalls.

“The way I see it: my teachers say I’m prisonbound, police can’t wait for me to twitch wrong, and I have untreated depression since my Mama keeps tellin’ me to man up. So anything to help me feel as low as I already do is welcome,” Taylor says while smiling and reading a tweet telling him to “use Google the same way he uses women” when he asked user ProBlackEverything about Feminist texts he’d recommend.

“We don’t have wi-fi at home so I wanted to check out whatever book he recommended from the library,” Taylor says. “Part of me thinks he was deflecting because he’s never actually read any feminist texts. But either way, I guess I wasn’t a part of his Pro-Blackness today.”

Taylor regrets just one interaction with Twitter users, in which he posted a picture with a white woman who donated a kidney to his grandmother. The picture of them hugging drew the ire of many who misconstrued that Taylor and the 58-year-old woman were romantically involved. He regrets the attention it brought the woman, noting, “they were saying she smelled like dog breeds I didn’t know existed.”

He recalls one user telling him to “drink bleach with D batteries in it” because it “kills you faster.” Smiling, he says “I didn’t even know that. I’m gonna put it in my kit.”

It’s a poem about a depressed 9-year-old who wants to jump off a building but he stops when he thinks of his grandmother. But I don’t think the girl who replied ‘please do’ read it.”

For months, 18-year-old Rondell Taylor has had a confounding, unhealthy association with users on Twitter, specifically members of Black Twitter who frequently deem men “trash” in part for their shameless misogyny and constant policing of womanhood.

Taylor, who suffers from bi-polar disorder, says that he follows many of the prominent accounts within the Twitter womanist community to read their insight – and to feed his low self-esteem.

“I don’t be knowin’ all them big words they be usin’, but I just like when they say s**t like ‘why do men exist.’ It’s exactly what I want to know,” the high school senior says. ”Once, I saw ‘the thought of a manless society makes my p*ssy happy. I decided to ask her what one had to do with the other and about 500 people got on me. The ways they told me to kill myself were lowkey pretty creative.”

Taylor notes that his size and bearded pictures may make him look older than his actual age, which he says is fine. “If I looked like a little boy they might take it easy on me and not drag me,” he says, before noting he did once see a 3-year-old get called “future compost” for catcalling a woman his Father told him to.

Taylor posts daily, including “good morning” tweets which are usually met with disdain. His favorite reply? “It would be a good morning if I were a careless s**tbag, complicit in the degradation of everything my dick desires. But I’m not,” Taylor, a virgin, recalls.

“The way I see it: my teachers say I’m prisonbound, police can’t wait for me to twitch wrong, and I have untreated depression since my Mama keeps tellin’ me to man up. So anything to help me feel as low as I already do is welcome,” Taylor says while smiling and reading a tweet telling him to “use Google the same way he uses women” when he asked user ProBlackEverything about Feminist texts he’d recommend.

“We don’t have wi-fi at home so I wanted to check out whatever book he recommended from the library,” Taylor says. “Part of me thinks he was deflecting because he’s never actually read any feminist texts. But either way, I guess I wasn’t a part of his Pro-Blackness today.”

Taylor regrets just one interaction with Twitter users, in which he posted a picture with a white woman who donated a kidney to his grandmother. The picture of them hugging drew the ire of many who misconstrued that Taylor and the 58-year-old woman were romantically involved. He regrets the attention it brought the woman, noting, “they were saying she smelled like dog breeds I didn’t know existed.”

He recalls one user telling him to “drink bleach with D batteries in it” because it “kills you faster.” Smiling, he says “I didn’t even know that. I’m gonna put it in my kit.”